“He was everything you can dream of for a son. Y’know watching him grow up was um.. it was a joy.”
Travis Bryan Tullis was her first born and only son. At the age of 21 Travis, decided he wanted to join the army. And after a couple years of service Travis came back home but his transition back to civilian life wasn’t easy.
“I knew something was wrong with him, he never said PTSD to me.I never really knew the word until he died and then I had to educate myself on it. I had to know what he went through and I had to know how he suffered. And he suffered silently.”
She says Travis went to Veteran Affairs for help but she says he didn’t get the help he needed. On April 10, 2017 while at the V-A, Travis couldn’t take it anymore and decided to end his life.
“The pain you feel when you lose a child, you feel like part of you died too. Because the heart and soul you gave that child from the moment you felt them move in you that died with them. You feel empty.”
When a nurse found Travis, his heart was still beating. They were able to put him on life support and donate his organs. Now his legacy lives on through the lives of others and his daughter.
“It was just a moment in his life. A second that didn’t go right, but that’s not how he lived that’s not who he was. He was a hero and that’s what I want her to know.”
Rose has one piece of advice to help other families escape suicide.
“To those thinking about suicide that the pain does not go away. It’s left to those you leave behind because we carry it now.”
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available 24-hours everyday. 1-800-273-8255